it really long since 1 updated,
1 whole weeeeeeeek :D

okay, i seriously forgotten what happen,
& i only know that things gone really bad,
from good to bad, & bad to worst...

tml is chinese paper & that's why i have th time to blog,
& i went to th doctor just now as i had infection on my ear,
may have to take out th ear sticks,
DAMN IT!!! D:

okay, short little notes people.
dedicated for someone really special,
maybe she don't think im her special someone,
but i still regards her as one.

okay girl, im really sorry for what i did,
for not answering your calls,
for not understanding when i even said that i understand you th most,
yet th end of results was like im not..
okay, you have th rights to be angry with me,
i don't blame you,
you gets frustrated,
i still don't blame you,
& even you're ignoring me,
i don't blame you...

we once said that we were th best of all friends,
we hang out most of th times
& we shared all of our secrets,
okay, maybe not all but most of th secrets
yet th results was like avoiding each other,
i really don't know if you understand
why we didn't talked to you after exams today,
you were furious with me thats why!
thats why it didn't make me to walk forward to you
& talked to you,
but you said that was only an excuse,
okay, nvr mind..

& maybe you think that im talking crap,
but seriously im shedding tears while typing all this,
i don't know whether if you would still come to my blog,
& continue reading no matter what happen,
& i don't know whether if all this will make you shed th tears
but seriously, im shedding th tears now,
3 of us seriously hope that we can continue to be th four of us,
which always go out together,
talked crap together,
or even continue hitting each another butts together,
& just seriously hope that we would be like last time,
or even when we're in th sec 1 years,

& when i saw your blog,
i was hurt deeply,
maybe you didn't know that im hurt,
but from what you said,
it seriously hurt me...
yet i didn't blame you,
because i know it was my fault,
& i really don't know what on earth is happening to th four of us,
something somehow make us till like this,
seriously, could we be th same four of us like before?
& all this ain't sweet talks just to make you happy,
all this seriously came beyond th depth of th heart,
if not, i won't be shedding tears,